P.jess

i haven't been a really good student for the past few days including today. i haven't done much homework. especially e.geog. just because i don't like geog and can't score in that, i don't have the mood to do its work. what kind of a student am i? alright, i have to kick this habit and do every single homework i have, no more being picky! at the same time, i realised my standard is dropping. the %of questions that i can't figure out is increasing man, this is insane. i don't want this to continue! argh..

keith gave me this fortune cookie today. do i really not have to worry what lies ahead? and i wonder if that 4 numbers are in the results today! HAHAA

can you spot the rainbow? if not, you're simply blind, and that's too bad!

yesterday principal andrian lim gave us a talk.a talk that knock sense into me.

1. it's not early anymore.
2. there's no time for procrastinating
3. it's now that determines my future
4. i cannot allow myself to regret in the future
5. what i want will not fall from sky, i have to work hard for it

i'm just pretty worried for my E.geog and english. maybe chinese. i'm so motivated to start revising from now on but the laziness in me isn't allowing me to. i have to think of a way to fight it soon. Recent activities taught me couple of things too. It's not the result but the process that is important. although the B.div bball girls have lost their chance, what they've gain is the greatest goal. the team has 'upgraded' to a family! I'm truely proud of them, go!

i've also learnt that i'm more unglamous then i thought i was. i don't know if it's good or bad. good because i'm different from the rest which makes me unique but bad because i it might affect the first impression i give people. speaking of which, i have to say i really cannot tolerate unhygenic people! en route to home, this middle age lady in the bus was digging her nose like nobody's business then rolling it into a ball and throwing it on the ground. as if it's not disgusting enough, she used the same hands to cover her mouth while yawning. then she goes back to sleep! HOPELESS, just like my dad. i don't like the way my dad digs his nose in his car, rolling it into a ball.... the annoying thing is, the expression he wears while doing it. there's no shame, only satisfaction. i'm truely glad i did not pick that habit! GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME!

hey, anyone who finds this sweet in singapore please tell me where i can find it! it's currently my favourite sweet in the WORLD. super sour with a pinch a fruity sweetness, perfect! my aunt bought this from the states, and i haven't seen this in local shops. so i don't know if they have it in singapore. awww man, i don't want to finish it:(

so last friday was dianna and alison's birthday party. to be honest, it isn't something big and crazy, but still, i had minimum fun! and after that party, the thought of having party more often came to mind. cus this year's quite a stressful year, so i figure out some party should sound chilling. but.... it's so sad my house isn't big enough:( unless..... forget it.

i've been jogging lately. and i'm gonna continue. i hated running/jogging, really dislike cardio. but after jogging last sunday, i realised after each jog, i'll feel really awake and refresh and less likely to get distracted easily. i'm gonna continue to jog like twice a week or so? i really need to concentrate on homework and not lay my head on the table every single time i try to do so. don't i wish to have a companion? but no one lives near me!!!!! BTW, night jogs are like the best cardio! cooling, dark (no one sees your unglamorous face) plus i can sing whatever my ipod's playing and not allowing people in the car to think i'm crazy cus it's too dark for them to see my mouth moving! HAHAH.

valentine's day is approaching! i should bake something for everyone! yay!! it's the last year in ngee ann, i should do more lovely things(:

it has been 14 days. real exhausting 14 days. tests almost every single day and fighting sleeping mode every lesson! i have so much to update. remember the oven my mummy bought me?  the first edible stuff produced....... YuJing's present. though the cookies were a little sweet, the birthday girl likes it! great achievement! not to mention, my electric beater broke down so everything was hand made by yours truly, which was kinda strenuous (the beating of eggs+sugar till double sized).

OLE at special school last thursday and friday was an eye opening experience. special kids are actually not as bad and troublesome as i previously assumed. they actually understand us while we're the ones who do not understand them. most importantly, the fact that those parents accepted their kids for who they are really touched my heart. god bless them with happiness forever!

Ruhuan bought this waterproof camera, well technically it doesn't belong to her, and we had a test out on friday! i'm totally awaiting for the next trip to the pool!

Today's mua birthday! i'm pretty used to simple birthdays since young like waking up to momma's wishes and receiving wishes here and there then back home for birthday cake. Everything just me and my mum! But this year, thanks to the awesome people in school, i've got many cards and i'm really really overjoyed and touched! I don't know, but i'm so surprised that just a simple 'happy birthday' from anyone could made me feel so great. It's so cliche, i know, but seriously..... I used to long for birthday parties where i could invite many people and have many presents or envy those rich kids who'll receive expensive presents from their papa&mama. But now, i think cards and 'happy birthday' is the all that i want! I believe there's something wrong with me, i'm never this easily satisfied. Don't you think that when people look into your eyes and say 'happy birthday', you'll feel so untroubled and all you can say is thank you but you feel more than grateful! Wow, the best part is the cards people write to me. I love reading cards. I love reading what people have to say to me, negative, positive, whatever. i especially love those wordy cards with what the sender like/dislike about me, wanna wish me and say to me . i don't know how to put it in words la! man, i suck at this. ANYWAY, THANK YOU AWESOME PEEPS FOR YOUR PRESENTS, CARDS AND WISHES!!!!!! I CAN'T THANK YOU GUYS ENOUGH MANNN

Anyway...... i started the day quite hopelessly embarrassed. I left my skirt unzipped from home to school! The thing is, i don't wear pants under my school skirt which means...... MY VERY CUTE LADY BOXER WAS EXPOSED TO PEOPLE IN THE BUS, PEOPLE IN THE BUS-STOP AND PEOPLE AROUND ME! This is.... unfortunately, me:( And since the start of every lessons, i've been rolling my eyes to fight my heavy eyelids. heavy  like 10kg.

After school, town with Ruhuan! I really don't wanna praise her but she's such an angel. Bought me present, wrote me a card and insisted on treating me the cake (picture above). Sometimes i don't want people to treat me so nicely because i don't know how to repay them, really. And thanks to her invitation, we got to meet Utt! imgaine she didn't ask me out, no more Utt. Not that i'm a big fan of him, but well... tell me the disadvantages about seeing a handsome celeb. Utt is so super duper friendly and approachable, no joke man. But i hope i didn't embarrass him by walking away when he offered me a handshake, which i did not see. Nevertheless, i manage to turn around in time to realise and shake those big hands(: so, THANKS RUHUAN!

note: I'm gonna give my dad an angry face for 1 week for not saying 'happy birthday' to me. i bet he don't even remember my birthday! no present, no wishes, no messages. Raymond Peh = Ugly fag. Don't wanna talk to him anymore. On the other hand, i'm gonna smile to my mum for 2 weeks because she gave me a birthday hug, sang me wishes and gave me present. Mum = mother mary.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!

It's already 7th, thursday! I thought it was 1st yesterday, time is almost flying.

The sec 1 orientation camp was kinda whacked for me but i enjoyed their enthusiasm. Other than that, i'm actually happy to have made a couple of friends and work with some seniors. The class i took is so childish and adorable!

So.... i haven't been getting enough sleep this week. Everyday i stayed up late to try complete my english webquest but i always get so distracted by everything. even my bin. And deadline's tomorrow, so i'm planning to hand in next week. I'm just gonna make use of this saturday to complete all my undone work and revise for upcoming tests. Yes, tests! It's only the first week of school and i'm having tests. I don't know man, i really wanna handle this year well to have zero regrets at the end of 2010.

Tomorrow will be another busy day i guess. After POA test, i shall stay back in school to do Emath TYS. I DON'T HAVE THE BOOK!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! and i believe the next thing that appears in mind for every students will be 'shit, school reopening. homework undone!' somehow, we'll know how to get away with it or do something about it.

I'm really interested in how had people spent their new year's day. including where they countdown and what they did on the last day becus i countdown in the train-.- i know that's not the right place, i would say, but we just had to in order to avoid the going-home crowd. overall, it was quite fun! oh, stayed over and jing's and had a deep heart chat before sleeping. which was lovely.

new year's wish : no more computer problems for me! I've had enough of my system breaking down:( The day before new year, i removed my login password from my laptop. but i don't know what happened and when i came back home and on my lappy, it asked for password again! so i tried all my passwords but everyone failed. but thank god for loving me, he gave me a friend on fb. natually, i wrote my predicament on my status and he happen to be some IT expert and commented on it. and he even offered help!!! for free! so we talked over the phone as he guided me step by step and taught me ways to protect my system. THANK GOD! like who will actually be willing to help a complete stranger, sacrifising sleep, explaining to a computer idiot. COMPLETELY FREE, without asking for anything in return. i just can't thank him enough:(

and yesterday, i went to join alvin, max, kenneth and fesa for their jam session. they're so cool! but i felt so bad cus i didn't wanna sing but they wanted me to sing. such a disappointment... but it was so nice of them to invite me over. And, fesa's place has food everywhere which made me feel so hungry every moment.

school starts tomorrow. and i'm gonna be a facilitator for orientation camp, hope i enjoy it!